[Fire Emblem 8] Winternight
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runicloreTitle: Winternight
Author: Amber Michelle
Challenge: #002: wounded
Game: 8 - Sacred Stones
Word Count: 3991
Pairings/Characters: Carlyle, Ismaire
Warnings: spoilers through chapters 15/16 of Eirika's path. Some violence, some blood, some nudity. It's like... T rated. Mostly.
Notes: This is draft two, because draft one pissed me off after it finished boring me to death. We should celebrate the rarity of this event; I almost never rewrite fan fiction!
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Round one victor: General Carlyle. The chamberlain's voice echoed across the space set aside for the queen's arena, flat, unsurprised. Blood streaked the sandstone floor in three splattered arcs, red as her dress where it gleamed still wet, soaking his opponent's hanging sleeve.
He bowed to the throne, as tradition demanded, and turned his back on Ismaire as soon as the formality was observed, walking to the edge of the fighting ground, where spectators parted to let him past the chalk line and shied from his bare blade. Her favor thumped and squirmed against his chest, a thin golden chain of her own and her wedding ring suspended beneath his coat. You carry my husband's honor as well as my own. It was a lodestone while he fought, and yet, the man facing him - son of a mercenary lord, not incompetent, yet not excellent - his bladework was too hesitant, and five minutes of patience had provided Carlyle the opening he needed to win.
Five rounds stretched between this match and the beginning of the next; he didn't watch the others, but let his gaze rest on the queen instead, as he couldn't when others were watching. Even from afar he saw Ismaire's gaze wandered, and wondered if the contestants noticed, or perhaps their audience, which must be searching for signs she favored one man or another. How sad and lonely she looks was a common remark. How deep the wound of the king's death, and her son's disappearance, that she refuses to remarry-- that she refused to see to her duty. Oh, but she was only a woman; of course she could not suppress her emotions or abandon her child. It was a flaw in the king's thinking, to insist she rule after him, rather than allowing the families to settle the matter the traditional way, with buckets of blood to quench the scorching sands.
Tell her, Carlyle; it has been almost ten years since Prince Joshua's abduction. If he cannot return - if he is even alive to contemplate such a thing - she must provide insurance for Jehanna's stability or hand the throne to someone who can.
Carlyle was not one to defend the king's decision - not anymore. He told her.
I wondered how long it would be, Ismaire had said, seated on a cushioned bench before the window in her chambers, one leg bent and drawn up beneath the green and white layers of her dress. The shutters were open to the garden, where olive blossoms flipped and fluttered on the wind, scattered across the walk, caught in her rose bushes. They've been whispering about it for some time. She paused, brown eyes fixed on the wall, and he remembered how tightly her fingers creased her silks when they clenched. There is always the Winternight bout, his queen said then, turning her face fully to the sun so Carlyle saw only the back of her head and the golden pins holding her hair in a figure-eight knot. You'll fight, won't you? If I give in?
You'll save me, is what she really said. You will, Carlyle, won't you?
*
In his youth Carlyle hardly imagined reality stretching for thirty years; he might envision five or ten, but never twenty, and the words I pledge my life and my sword to the king sounded right when he recited them in the throne room for his knighting, but implied an eternity of the acidic twisting in his gut when he caught sight of Ismaire in the garden - Ismaire in the observatory, the dining hall, the practice yard. He crossed swords with her, and lost one bout in seven because his arm shook or he lost his grip. Her steel caressed his throat, the sharp edge grazing skin, nicking, but her laugh (finally! I claim victory over my knight protector!) always came with a pleasant tingle.
Her callused hand, offered to help him up on one humiliating occasion, was the most beautiful he'd ever held. How foolish, he'd often thought, holding that hand, pressing his lips to the white bumps of her knuckles, that the king allowed her to consort with him in this way. How utterly ridiculous. There were men in the guard who would not hesitate to interpret her blushes as permission to go further - kiss her wrist, her elbow, the slope of her shoulder.
Carlyle thought of it often, though he tried not to; it was easy at first to simply avert his eyes when they spoke, or to assess her as an opponent and judge the speed of her reactions, the flexibility of her wrist-- whether she wore her hair bound or not, and how she compensated for keeping it out of his way. She made an agile swordsman despite her vanity. Her hair flew loose, drifting and tracing the patterns of wind in her wake, and while he turned to follow, a second too slow, Ismaire struck. A thin, shallow, stinging line across the back of his hand was his reward.
But Ismaire never scolded him. Perhaps she didn't realize. No-- of course she didn't notice the turn his thoughts took, or she would have claimed a more trustworthy knight as her protector. He thought he was satisfied merely to serve - to watch, guard, keep her secrets. Every morning spent attending her Carlyle reminded himself he was a dog instead of a man, loyal and single-minded, grateful for scraps of affection. She bandaged his cuts after their clashes, sometimes lay a smooth white hand against his cheek to ask isn't it terribly boring to follow me around all day, Carlyle? Shall I send you to subdue the northern nome, maybe let your blade see some use outside of the practice yard? and he said no, his skill wasn't meant to mow down her clansmen, but guard her life - yes, the king's too, of course, of course he would.
She had him accompany her to the king's chamber the night her son was conceived - it must have been done in ignorance, she was not cruel, nor prone to playing games - and he saved their lives that night, all three of them. Carlyle heard the splinter of the shutters, her gasp, and couldn't remember afterward how he arrived in time to cut the intruder down. All he knew was how close the curved blade had come to her pale throat, and how the heavy oak door hung on one hinge that squealed as it drifted shut. Half the blood staining her hair belonged to her husband, but he didn't know it then - only later.
His liege lived, of course-- as did Ismaire's moonlit ghost half-curled on the bed, a sheet drawn up and clenched between her breasts, but too low to cover them. Hair stuck to her skin like streaks of blood and Carlyle had to lean over, grab her shoulders, shake sense into her, before he realized she wasn't hurt and turned to check on his king.
You shouldn't have done that, she said later, after the sun had risen and the Hall had been searched. What were you thinking, tending to me before your lord?
Carlyle kept his gaze fixed on her lap, and his hands clenched, one pressed to the floor, the other propped on his knee while he knelt. That day she wore indigo trimmed with gray and silvered silk, but it was not dark enough nor thick enough to banish his memory of what hid beneath: long legs on which the moon's shadows traced hard lines of muscle, wide hips, the dimple on her belly; the weight of her breasts and their dark tips, tattooed with blood and hair.
I wasn't thinking, he said. He couldn't think. It was impossible to think.
Ismaire sighed, and he wondered if that sound was the same in the dark, warmer, sharper, moist on the ear. Don't ever do that again. What would Jehanna do without him--?
What would she do without her king-- was that it?
She would live. Carlyle would allow nothing else.
*
Ismaire might have been lovely in the moonlight, but fire suited her best. It gilded her skin when he faced her at the conclusion of his second Winternight bout and bowed, that recollection vivid in his mind's eye, his opponent's blood a thread on the edge of his sword, just like a single hair from her head. The orange light glittered on her rings, crowned her with a golden halo. His breath clouded when it left his mouth; the night began mild and laden with jasmine perfume, blessed by a gentle wind, and now it seemed he should feel the cold. Torches burned ten to a wall, floor lamps were placed to either side of the throne, at the corners of the battle ground, all bright, warm smears of color in his peripheral vision. The crowd was so loud Carlyle couldn't hear it anymore. His ears rang as he went to sit on his bench, where he wiped his blade clean and watched the queen, who watched the challengers - or so it appeared.
A circle of women surrounded the throne - dancers, singers. Their brass charms glittered like stars. Ismaire raised her arm and someone shouted for the match to begin. Carlyle heard the clash of metal twice, the slither of one blade coasting the edge of another, strike strike, break. He knew the footwork without looking up; he knew by the tone one man wielded a curved sword, and the other a silver short sword with one edge. The former would win, if he was smart-- but his noisy steps didn't sound smart, and the clang of a disarmament, of a weapon striking the sandstone floor, did not have the pleasing ring of silver.
Carlyle would win this tournament. The queen's callused hand would be his, at least until she withdrew for the night, for if Ismaire had wanted a lover she would have taken one. I want Joshua to come home was all she said when he asked: what did she want? If I cannot have Joseph--
And she stopped.
*
That man didn't realize what a prize he had in Ismaire. He knew only that she was beautiful, that she doted on him-- Carlyle, which of the five nations raises the finest peaches? She was just a girl in his memory, barely out of childhood, but she couldn't have been less than eighteen summers, or perhaps nineteen. Oh, they can't be out of season-- what about dried varieties? Perhaps wine? He loves the flavor, it's almost his naming day--
Carlyle remembered himself as he was now, though he was young, younger than the king - older than Ismaire, yet just experienced enough to know the honor, the unprecedented favor, bestowed when the king assigned him to guard her. She made much of his skill after witnessing a match in which he'd bested her husband, but Joseph was not a swordsman. He knew the use of a blade because one was not a man in Jehanna without one, but his skill lay elsewhere. Before returning to fight his brothers for the right to rule, he'd studied history and politics at Grado's university and magic in Rausten, and neither brother managed to lay a scratch on him.
Ismaire, lowly handmaid, was the prize-- and the throne, also. Joseph didn't appear interested in it when he first laid his gaze upon the red velvet cushion, according to her. He only stared at it a moment, then ordered a smaller one made and asked her to sit with him at audience to learn.
Plums, she said after a moment of thought, her fingertips tapping her unrouged lips. No, apricots are closer. If we had even one tree-- but olives were all Jehanna was suited to grow, and the fruits of other countries required care and science to maintain, yet were never as fertile or generous. Her sigh was sharp, piqued. We'll have to do with rose and pomegranate, she said, her lower lip swelling slightly-- as if Carlyle's participation were a foregone conclusion. As if Joseph would humor her, thank her, when the first reports of rebellion up north trickled in on the back of horses run to death through the sand and summer heat. He opened his mouth to tell her the whim was out of place, and said, for some reason, I know of a merchant who traffics such goods. Shall I speak to him? It was like her smile cast a spell to warp the words before they left his mouth.
Ismaire, enchantress of the shimmering sands. She turned to meet her husband a moment later, her back presented to Carlyle, her red hair swirling. Though she thanked him later, he only remembered the void of silence that dropping beneath his feet, separating them. Joseph caught her by the waist, pressed a kiss to her forehead, and his attention immediately settled on Carlyle - he didn't even let go before he started talking, but held her against his hip as he would a child.
That was just like him. Once he had his hands on a treasure, a jewel or a woman, a throne, a game piece, it bore his fingerprint forever, a smear across the polished surface. Look-- don't lay a finger on it, but look, see it, covet. Never obtain it.
A battleground has been chosen near Hesed. You will take three thousand men and conquer Medina. The queen protested, and he shushed her.
Carlyle emerged from that battle victorious, pushed the rebellious clan back to Yohanna, and if he lost after that, still-- he'd yet to lose a fight that mattered.
*
"They aren't interested in another prince, of course," Ismaire said, that list in her hand again, her finger counting each name, her eyes moving to note each clan. A stick of graphite lay on a tray at her elbow to circle applicants unwelcome at the Hall's Winternight celebration. The table creaked when she leaned on the edge to pull her legs from beneath her. "Look at this, someone had the nerve to identify himself as a son of the Medina-- how many of them survived?"
"A dozen or so." She read by the light of a single candle, that also lit at her elbow and in real danger of lighting in her hair. Carlyle gave the coals in her iron brazier one last jab with the poker and crossed the room in three long strides to move it before the vision in his head could become reality.
Ismaire turned to look, blinked, reached back to gather her hair over her other shoulder. "Interesting." Her eyes slid back to the parchment. "Women?"
Carlyle leaned the poker against his chair. The tip scraped the floor. "Children."
Her shutters were closed and locked, and the silk curtains drawn. Across the room, her bed looked mussed, the covers tossed open and rumpled, layers of white and blue and a blanket woven in geometric triangles that formed yellow and red stars that spilled down onto the bare stone floor. Rose still lingered on the air from her bath; it still tasted moist, felt thick and humid when drawn into his lungs, and the room felt many times smaller than it actually was; there was room here to practice forms, and he remembered, years ago, the cedar frame of a cradle occupying that corner right there, behind the door. If he tried, he could imagine its wooden scent lingering as the memory of its occupant often did when Ismaire sat the way she did now, in the dark, her gaze pointed at the shadows dancing on the wall.
"He told you to kill everyone."
"Yes." Carlyle folded an arm against his back, watched her. She didn't need golden pins or bands in her hair when firelight flecked it with gold and citrine. "Instead, ten children and their mothers were allowed to escape to Carcino. My orders were to return once their camp was destroyed, so I had no choice."
"Of course not." The paper tilted inward, the edge caught on her robe. "I wouldn't have wanted you to..." She licked her lips, glancing at the table, into her empty water cup, and waved him away when he reached for it. "Do we have any information on these people? Family names, personal names--"
He couldn't tell, from that frown, if she hoped they would claim relation to her or not. It was why they rebelled to begin with-- they were denied the honors normally given to the family of a queen in the name of a clean succession. Carlyle could have been more thorough, but when confronted by those faces - not the children, but the wives, that one in particular, who resembled his queen so strongly, his sword had grown heavy and unwieldly. He'd wanted to drop it like a hot iron. "None. He can't be more than fifteen, if he truly is one of Medina's refugees. At worst he will get himself killed."
Ismaire sighed, flat-lipped. That was the wrong thing to say, and he knew it. "Ban him from the match."
Carlyle bowed slightly. A boy wouldn't be much good as the victor, in any case. Even if he managed to perform, the experience would be lackluster at best, and his queen deserved better if she was to abandon her dignity to-- to. Just thinking about it made the muscles in his chest spasm. His nails dug into his palms.
"I'm glad you didn't do it," she said under her breath.
A moment passed before he realized she was referring to the slaughter at Medina. "I knew you wouldn't like it."
The smile he loved came and went quickly, merely a shadow. "You've always been the one I can count on to make my wishes come true. See to this one, please." Ismaire finally let the paper fall to her lap and leaned on the table again, rubbed her temple. "I would have liked to enjoy Winternight this year. Why do the patriarchs have to complicate everything? I'm perfectly healthy. There is no danger of a succession war."
That, he could not say. Every new year began with a tournament, but tradition stripped the participants of rank, made them equals, let them win or lose without political penalty, according to their own merits. Why did she agree to politicize it? "It won't be complicated once my name enters the roll," he said, and Ismaire laughed, covering her mouth. She would enjoy Winternight. Perhaps she would blush again, as she used to, when he took the opportunity presented by his victory to kiss her hand.
"When you win," she said, her hand drifting to rest, splayed, against her throat, and her eyes moving to the candle flame, "will you claim your prize?"
He watched her rings glitter. Gathering words to answer was like grasping at air - literally, he could not breathe for a time. A few seconds. A minute. His heart might have dropped down into his stomach.
In the end he didn't answer.
*
The final blood-letting, the last arc of glittering garnet, flew from the lick of Carlyle's blade slowly, as if the air had congealed or the arena was suddenly submerged in the lake. He watched it shine and made the obligatory mental comparison to Ismaire's hair, lips, the dye on her nails and the heavy red brocade of her dress, and thought it was really his own blood, drawn again by his queen's sword to leave a stinging mark behind. Her skill was such a man might earn hundreds of tiny, painful cuts in a criss-cross over legs and arms that pulled at every swipe, strike, block. Ismaire could flay the skin from one's body.
She did it every day. She may as well peel him like an apple.
Carlyle couldn't remember how he appeared at his queen's side to take her hand; the sequence of events following his victory must have slipped by because he'd repeated them five times already - or perhaps Ismaire had dominated his field of vision from the moment he turned his back on the torchlit battleground. Neither complacency nor his infatuation was adequate excuse. She could have been killed five times over in the time it took to walk to the dais and bend knee.
Sweat drenched the collar of his coat, soaked his hair dark, made it stick to his neck and scratch when he lowered his head. His queen had seen him like this before - she'd driven him into exhaustion in practice, faced him with her hair tangled, looking no better than a dunked cat - yet when she offered her hand, it was only habit that made Carlyle reach and take it, lean down, press his lips to the henna painted on her dry skin. He felt her thin bones flex, and her fingers curled around his hand.
That henna tattoo, dark and brown and as reminiscent of blood as her hair in its own way, it curled and spiraled out of sight beneath her sleeve and cast its skeins all the way around her arm, up to her shoulder, down to curl over her ribs. He could imagine. How could he forget--
"Our victor has proven himself." Her voice rang across the open space. The talking behind him quieted to murmurs, then to silence. Ismaire clasped his hand tightly and yanked-- get up. "Does anybody contest his claim to the spoils?"
Silence - real silence, broken by the snap of pitch and torch flames, the clank of coins around a dancer's hips. The sound of robes and skirts rustling blended together like wind, and sandals scraped, and he smelled her perfume - sweet, resinous myrrh and honey, wine, like temple incense and sweet, succulent fruit. Perhaps three hundred people spilled onto the arena floor: clan heads, family representatives, aristocrats, mercenary lords, merchants, everyone with a stake in Jehanna's continued peace.
His hand twitched. She wasn't a chest of gold-- Carlyle was not her king, ready to seize her with long-fingered, grasping hands. He was not any of those men or women facing them, who cared only for their trades and work contracts.
Ismaire held his hand up as she would a scepter or a book, something she could as easily throw away as draw close to her breast. "Very well then. Light the bonfire." One of her women left the circle around the throne and pushed into the crowd, disappeared. She stepped down from the dais and took his arm as usual, her fingers curling into his sleeve, and instinct folded her hand to his side, as Carlyle felt stiff, even frozen, now that the night air cooled the perspiration beaded all over his skin. Behind whispered the long train of her red dress and the jingle of flat gold teardrops draped from her sash. "Midnight is approaching. Let us greet the new year at the lakeside and pray for Jehanna's continued prosperity!"
The crowd parted, clapping, smiling, wishing their queen a happy new year, and above, washed out by torchlight, by the moon, the sky was vast and empty.
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FE8 is dead to me now.
Author: Amber Michelle
Challenge: #002: wounded
Game: 8 - Sacred Stones
Word Count: 3991
Pairings/Characters: Carlyle, Ismaire
Warnings: spoilers through chapters 15/16 of Eirika's path. Some violence, some blood, some nudity. It's like... T rated. Mostly.
Notes: This is draft two, because draft one pissed me off after it finished boring me to death. We should celebrate the rarity of this event; I almost never rewrite fan fiction!
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Round one victor: General Carlyle. The chamberlain's voice echoed across the space set aside for the queen's arena, flat, unsurprised. Blood streaked the sandstone floor in three splattered arcs, red as her dress where it gleamed still wet, soaking his opponent's hanging sleeve.
He bowed to the throne, as tradition demanded, and turned his back on Ismaire as soon as the formality was observed, walking to the edge of the fighting ground, where spectators parted to let him past the chalk line and shied from his bare blade. Her favor thumped and squirmed against his chest, a thin golden chain of her own and her wedding ring suspended beneath his coat. You carry my husband's honor as well as my own. It was a lodestone while he fought, and yet, the man facing him - son of a mercenary lord, not incompetent, yet not excellent - his bladework was too hesitant, and five minutes of patience had provided Carlyle the opening he needed to win.
Five rounds stretched between this match and the beginning of the next; he didn't watch the others, but let his gaze rest on the queen instead, as he couldn't when others were watching. Even from afar he saw Ismaire's gaze wandered, and wondered if the contestants noticed, or perhaps their audience, which must be searching for signs she favored one man or another. How sad and lonely she looks was a common remark. How deep the wound of the king's death, and her son's disappearance, that she refuses to remarry-- that she refused to see to her duty. Oh, but she was only a woman; of course she could not suppress her emotions or abandon her child. It was a flaw in the king's thinking, to insist she rule after him, rather than allowing the families to settle the matter the traditional way, with buckets of blood to quench the scorching sands.
Tell her, Carlyle; it has been almost ten years since Prince Joshua's abduction. If he cannot return - if he is even alive to contemplate such a thing - she must provide insurance for Jehanna's stability or hand the throne to someone who can.
Carlyle was not one to defend the king's decision - not anymore. He told her.
I wondered how long it would be, Ismaire had said, seated on a cushioned bench before the window in her chambers, one leg bent and drawn up beneath the green and white layers of her dress. The shutters were open to the garden, where olive blossoms flipped and fluttered on the wind, scattered across the walk, caught in her rose bushes. They've been whispering about it for some time. She paused, brown eyes fixed on the wall, and he remembered how tightly her fingers creased her silks when they clenched. There is always the Winternight bout, his queen said then, turning her face fully to the sun so Carlyle saw only the back of her head and the golden pins holding her hair in a figure-eight knot. You'll fight, won't you? If I give in?
You'll save me, is what she really said. You will, Carlyle, won't you?
*
In his youth Carlyle hardly imagined reality stretching for thirty years; he might envision five or ten, but never twenty, and the words I pledge my life and my sword to the king sounded right when he recited them in the throne room for his knighting, but implied an eternity of the acidic twisting in his gut when he caught sight of Ismaire in the garden - Ismaire in the observatory, the dining hall, the practice yard. He crossed swords with her, and lost one bout in seven because his arm shook or he lost his grip. Her steel caressed his throat, the sharp edge grazing skin, nicking, but her laugh (finally! I claim victory over my knight protector!) always came with a pleasant tingle.
Her callused hand, offered to help him up on one humiliating occasion, was the most beautiful he'd ever held. How foolish, he'd often thought, holding that hand, pressing his lips to the white bumps of her knuckles, that the king allowed her to consort with him in this way. How utterly ridiculous. There were men in the guard who would not hesitate to interpret her blushes as permission to go further - kiss her wrist, her elbow, the slope of her shoulder.
Carlyle thought of it often, though he tried not to; it was easy at first to simply avert his eyes when they spoke, or to assess her as an opponent and judge the speed of her reactions, the flexibility of her wrist-- whether she wore her hair bound or not, and how she compensated for keeping it out of his way. She made an agile swordsman despite her vanity. Her hair flew loose, drifting and tracing the patterns of wind in her wake, and while he turned to follow, a second too slow, Ismaire struck. A thin, shallow, stinging line across the back of his hand was his reward.
But Ismaire never scolded him. Perhaps she didn't realize. No-- of course she didn't notice the turn his thoughts took, or she would have claimed a more trustworthy knight as her protector. He thought he was satisfied merely to serve - to watch, guard, keep her secrets. Every morning spent attending her Carlyle reminded himself he was a dog instead of a man, loyal and single-minded, grateful for scraps of affection. She bandaged his cuts after their clashes, sometimes lay a smooth white hand against his cheek to ask isn't it terribly boring to follow me around all day, Carlyle? Shall I send you to subdue the northern nome, maybe let your blade see some use outside of the practice yard? and he said no, his skill wasn't meant to mow down her clansmen, but guard her life - yes, the king's too, of course, of course he would.
She had him accompany her to the king's chamber the night her son was conceived - it must have been done in ignorance, she was not cruel, nor prone to playing games - and he saved their lives that night, all three of them. Carlyle heard the splinter of the shutters, her gasp, and couldn't remember afterward how he arrived in time to cut the intruder down. All he knew was how close the curved blade had come to her pale throat, and how the heavy oak door hung on one hinge that squealed as it drifted shut. Half the blood staining her hair belonged to her husband, but he didn't know it then - only later.
His liege lived, of course-- as did Ismaire's moonlit ghost half-curled on the bed, a sheet drawn up and clenched between her breasts, but too low to cover them. Hair stuck to her skin like streaks of blood and Carlyle had to lean over, grab her shoulders, shake sense into her, before he realized she wasn't hurt and turned to check on his king.
You shouldn't have done that, she said later, after the sun had risen and the Hall had been searched. What were you thinking, tending to me before your lord?
Carlyle kept his gaze fixed on her lap, and his hands clenched, one pressed to the floor, the other propped on his knee while he knelt. That day she wore indigo trimmed with gray and silvered silk, but it was not dark enough nor thick enough to banish his memory of what hid beneath: long legs on which the moon's shadows traced hard lines of muscle, wide hips, the dimple on her belly; the weight of her breasts and their dark tips, tattooed with blood and hair.
I wasn't thinking, he said. He couldn't think. It was impossible to think.
Ismaire sighed, and he wondered if that sound was the same in the dark, warmer, sharper, moist on the ear. Don't ever do that again. What would Jehanna do without him--?
What would she do without her king-- was that it?
She would live. Carlyle would allow nothing else.
*
Ismaire might have been lovely in the moonlight, but fire suited her best. It gilded her skin when he faced her at the conclusion of his second Winternight bout and bowed, that recollection vivid in his mind's eye, his opponent's blood a thread on the edge of his sword, just like a single hair from her head. The orange light glittered on her rings, crowned her with a golden halo. His breath clouded when it left his mouth; the night began mild and laden with jasmine perfume, blessed by a gentle wind, and now it seemed he should feel the cold. Torches burned ten to a wall, floor lamps were placed to either side of the throne, at the corners of the battle ground, all bright, warm smears of color in his peripheral vision. The crowd was so loud Carlyle couldn't hear it anymore. His ears rang as he went to sit on his bench, where he wiped his blade clean and watched the queen, who watched the challengers - or so it appeared.
A circle of women surrounded the throne - dancers, singers. Their brass charms glittered like stars. Ismaire raised her arm and someone shouted for the match to begin. Carlyle heard the clash of metal twice, the slither of one blade coasting the edge of another, strike strike, break. He knew the footwork without looking up; he knew by the tone one man wielded a curved sword, and the other a silver short sword with one edge. The former would win, if he was smart-- but his noisy steps didn't sound smart, and the clang of a disarmament, of a weapon striking the sandstone floor, did not have the pleasing ring of silver.
Carlyle would win this tournament. The queen's callused hand would be his, at least until she withdrew for the night, for if Ismaire had wanted a lover she would have taken one. I want Joshua to come home was all she said when he asked: what did she want? If I cannot have Joseph--
And she stopped.
*
That man didn't realize what a prize he had in Ismaire. He knew only that she was beautiful, that she doted on him-- Carlyle, which of the five nations raises the finest peaches? She was just a girl in his memory, barely out of childhood, but she couldn't have been less than eighteen summers, or perhaps nineteen. Oh, they can't be out of season-- what about dried varieties? Perhaps wine? He loves the flavor, it's almost his naming day--
Carlyle remembered himself as he was now, though he was young, younger than the king - older than Ismaire, yet just experienced enough to know the honor, the unprecedented favor, bestowed when the king assigned him to guard her. She made much of his skill after witnessing a match in which he'd bested her husband, but Joseph was not a swordsman. He knew the use of a blade because one was not a man in Jehanna without one, but his skill lay elsewhere. Before returning to fight his brothers for the right to rule, he'd studied history and politics at Grado's university and magic in Rausten, and neither brother managed to lay a scratch on him.
Ismaire, lowly handmaid, was the prize-- and the throne, also. Joseph didn't appear interested in it when he first laid his gaze upon the red velvet cushion, according to her. He only stared at it a moment, then ordered a smaller one made and asked her to sit with him at audience to learn.
Plums, she said after a moment of thought, her fingertips tapping her unrouged lips. No, apricots are closer. If we had even one tree-- but olives were all Jehanna was suited to grow, and the fruits of other countries required care and science to maintain, yet were never as fertile or generous. Her sigh was sharp, piqued. We'll have to do with rose and pomegranate, she said, her lower lip swelling slightly-- as if Carlyle's participation were a foregone conclusion. As if Joseph would humor her, thank her, when the first reports of rebellion up north trickled in on the back of horses run to death through the sand and summer heat. He opened his mouth to tell her the whim was out of place, and said, for some reason, I know of a merchant who traffics such goods. Shall I speak to him? It was like her smile cast a spell to warp the words before they left his mouth.
Ismaire, enchantress of the shimmering sands. She turned to meet her husband a moment later, her back presented to Carlyle, her red hair swirling. Though she thanked him later, he only remembered the void of silence that dropping beneath his feet, separating them. Joseph caught her by the waist, pressed a kiss to her forehead, and his attention immediately settled on Carlyle - he didn't even let go before he started talking, but held her against his hip as he would a child.
That was just like him. Once he had his hands on a treasure, a jewel or a woman, a throne, a game piece, it bore his fingerprint forever, a smear across the polished surface. Look-- don't lay a finger on it, but look, see it, covet. Never obtain it.
A battleground has been chosen near Hesed. You will take three thousand men and conquer Medina. The queen protested, and he shushed her.
Carlyle emerged from that battle victorious, pushed the rebellious clan back to Yohanna, and if he lost after that, still-- he'd yet to lose a fight that mattered.
*
"They aren't interested in another prince, of course," Ismaire said, that list in her hand again, her finger counting each name, her eyes moving to note each clan. A stick of graphite lay on a tray at her elbow to circle applicants unwelcome at the Hall's Winternight celebration. The table creaked when she leaned on the edge to pull her legs from beneath her. "Look at this, someone had the nerve to identify himself as a son of the Medina-- how many of them survived?"
"A dozen or so." She read by the light of a single candle, that also lit at her elbow and in real danger of lighting in her hair. Carlyle gave the coals in her iron brazier one last jab with the poker and crossed the room in three long strides to move it before the vision in his head could become reality.
Ismaire turned to look, blinked, reached back to gather her hair over her other shoulder. "Interesting." Her eyes slid back to the parchment. "Women?"
Carlyle leaned the poker against his chair. The tip scraped the floor. "Children."
Her shutters were closed and locked, and the silk curtains drawn. Across the room, her bed looked mussed, the covers tossed open and rumpled, layers of white and blue and a blanket woven in geometric triangles that formed yellow and red stars that spilled down onto the bare stone floor. Rose still lingered on the air from her bath; it still tasted moist, felt thick and humid when drawn into his lungs, and the room felt many times smaller than it actually was; there was room here to practice forms, and he remembered, years ago, the cedar frame of a cradle occupying that corner right there, behind the door. If he tried, he could imagine its wooden scent lingering as the memory of its occupant often did when Ismaire sat the way she did now, in the dark, her gaze pointed at the shadows dancing on the wall.
"He told you to kill everyone."
"Yes." Carlyle folded an arm against his back, watched her. She didn't need golden pins or bands in her hair when firelight flecked it with gold and citrine. "Instead, ten children and their mothers were allowed to escape to Carcino. My orders were to return once their camp was destroyed, so I had no choice."
"Of course not." The paper tilted inward, the edge caught on her robe. "I wouldn't have wanted you to..." She licked her lips, glancing at the table, into her empty water cup, and waved him away when he reached for it. "Do we have any information on these people? Family names, personal names--"
He couldn't tell, from that frown, if she hoped they would claim relation to her or not. It was why they rebelled to begin with-- they were denied the honors normally given to the family of a queen in the name of a clean succession. Carlyle could have been more thorough, but when confronted by those faces - not the children, but the wives, that one in particular, who resembled his queen so strongly, his sword had grown heavy and unwieldly. He'd wanted to drop it like a hot iron. "None. He can't be more than fifteen, if he truly is one of Medina's refugees. At worst he will get himself killed."
Ismaire sighed, flat-lipped. That was the wrong thing to say, and he knew it. "Ban him from the match."
Carlyle bowed slightly. A boy wouldn't be much good as the victor, in any case. Even if he managed to perform, the experience would be lackluster at best, and his queen deserved better if she was to abandon her dignity to-- to. Just thinking about it made the muscles in his chest spasm. His nails dug into his palms.
"I'm glad you didn't do it," she said under her breath.
A moment passed before he realized she was referring to the slaughter at Medina. "I knew you wouldn't like it."
The smile he loved came and went quickly, merely a shadow. "You've always been the one I can count on to make my wishes come true. See to this one, please." Ismaire finally let the paper fall to her lap and leaned on the table again, rubbed her temple. "I would have liked to enjoy Winternight this year. Why do the patriarchs have to complicate everything? I'm perfectly healthy. There is no danger of a succession war."
That, he could not say. Every new year began with a tournament, but tradition stripped the participants of rank, made them equals, let them win or lose without political penalty, according to their own merits. Why did she agree to politicize it? "It won't be complicated once my name enters the roll," he said, and Ismaire laughed, covering her mouth. She would enjoy Winternight. Perhaps she would blush again, as she used to, when he took the opportunity presented by his victory to kiss her hand.
"When you win," she said, her hand drifting to rest, splayed, against her throat, and her eyes moving to the candle flame, "will you claim your prize?"
He watched her rings glitter. Gathering words to answer was like grasping at air - literally, he could not breathe for a time. A few seconds. A minute. His heart might have dropped down into his stomach.
In the end he didn't answer.
*
The final blood-letting, the last arc of glittering garnet, flew from the lick of Carlyle's blade slowly, as if the air had congealed or the arena was suddenly submerged in the lake. He watched it shine and made the obligatory mental comparison to Ismaire's hair, lips, the dye on her nails and the heavy red brocade of her dress, and thought it was really his own blood, drawn again by his queen's sword to leave a stinging mark behind. Her skill was such a man might earn hundreds of tiny, painful cuts in a criss-cross over legs and arms that pulled at every swipe, strike, block. Ismaire could flay the skin from one's body.
She did it every day. She may as well peel him like an apple.
Carlyle couldn't remember how he appeared at his queen's side to take her hand; the sequence of events following his victory must have slipped by because he'd repeated them five times already - or perhaps Ismaire had dominated his field of vision from the moment he turned his back on the torchlit battleground. Neither complacency nor his infatuation was adequate excuse. She could have been killed five times over in the time it took to walk to the dais and bend knee.
Sweat drenched the collar of his coat, soaked his hair dark, made it stick to his neck and scratch when he lowered his head. His queen had seen him like this before - she'd driven him into exhaustion in practice, faced him with her hair tangled, looking no better than a dunked cat - yet when she offered her hand, it was only habit that made Carlyle reach and take it, lean down, press his lips to the henna painted on her dry skin. He felt her thin bones flex, and her fingers curled around his hand.
That henna tattoo, dark and brown and as reminiscent of blood as her hair in its own way, it curled and spiraled out of sight beneath her sleeve and cast its skeins all the way around her arm, up to her shoulder, down to curl over her ribs. He could imagine. How could he forget--
"Our victor has proven himself." Her voice rang across the open space. The talking behind him quieted to murmurs, then to silence. Ismaire clasped his hand tightly and yanked-- get up. "Does anybody contest his claim to the spoils?"
Silence - real silence, broken by the snap of pitch and torch flames, the clank of coins around a dancer's hips. The sound of robes and skirts rustling blended together like wind, and sandals scraped, and he smelled her perfume - sweet, resinous myrrh and honey, wine, like temple incense and sweet, succulent fruit. Perhaps three hundred people spilled onto the arena floor: clan heads, family representatives, aristocrats, mercenary lords, merchants, everyone with a stake in Jehanna's continued peace.
His hand twitched. She wasn't a chest of gold-- Carlyle was not her king, ready to seize her with long-fingered, grasping hands. He was not any of those men or women facing them, who cared only for their trades and work contracts.
Ismaire held his hand up as she would a scepter or a book, something she could as easily throw away as draw close to her breast. "Very well then. Light the bonfire." One of her women left the circle around the throne and pushed into the crowd, disappeared. She stepped down from the dais and took his arm as usual, her fingers curling into his sleeve, and instinct folded her hand to his side, as Carlyle felt stiff, even frozen, now that the night air cooled the perspiration beaded all over his skin. Behind whispered the long train of her red dress and the jingle of flat gold teardrops draped from her sash. "Midnight is approaching. Let us greet the new year at the lakeside and pray for Jehanna's continued prosperity!"
The crowd parted, clapping, smiling, wishing their queen a happy new year, and above, washed out by torchlight, by the moon, the sky was vast and empty.
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FE8 is dead to me now.
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Date: 2010-02-06 07:57 pm (UTC)so if FE8 is dead to you now... does that mean you won't write it anymore? sobno subject
Date: 2010-02-07 02:13 pm (UTC)As for fic... ehhhhh. The problem is, even when I want to write something, there's nothing to write. That L'Arachel fic was hard to tease out, because there aren't many hints about her experience aside from her supports with Eirika - or what Rausten is like, for example. There are no implications at all regarding international relations aside from the Renais/Grado friendship, and some Renais/Frelia. I have to build everything from the ground up.
That's why I feel like this fic is a mess: I have to build Jehanna from a tiny grain of sand into a real place, and it's difficult. As I'm writing, I'm figuring out what the rooms look like, or what the politics might be like, because we sure don't see anything like that in the games. Even FE6, king of vague world-building, offered more than that.
... in short, I might finish the other fic I have in progress, but otherwise, FE8 will be something I only write for requests and memes. So be sure to ask for fic when I throw those up? :D
I'm sorry. I do like the game, it's just that it drives me insane. XD
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Date: 2010-02-07 03:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-07 03:10 am (UTC)Your conception of Jehanna is so detailed that reading this was like being dropped off into a foreign country with a guidebook and a pocket dictionary. Great world-building, but it was alien enough that I had to read some passages two or three times to figure out what exactly was going on (and in some cases, I'm still not sure). For some reason I found the discussion on fruit crops especially charming. I also liked your take on Ismaire's husband ("he'd studied history and politics at Grado's university and magic in Rausten"). And, uh, I felt terrible for Carlyle, knowing the way this all ends, but that goes with the territory.
All right-- was that fifteen-year-old boy descended from the Medina supposed to be a reflection of Joshua or something else with symbolic significance?
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Date: 2010-02-07 02:27 pm (UTC)This may seem a bit off-topic, but it'll tie in: I'm told that my first drafts for original stories are always extremely dense, and read like a creative process instead of a story - that they're really stream-of-consciousness, and packed full of details that don't necessarily serve the story. That happens because I've found over time I'm better at developing a setting if I'm trying to use it, instead of making lists and diagrams, or outlines, and so forth.
Like I said above, I have to build Jehanna from the ground up because the game didn't bother to give me any information on the culture, the history-- nothing. We get the tiny bit of story between Carlyle and Ismaire, and a bit more from Joshua, we know Jehanna is home to a lot of mercenaries, and then you never hear about them again. No hints as to international relations, what their social structure is like. Even FE6 gave me more information - or at least, more relevant information.
Anyway, I'm not trying to make excuses. If I'd known the challenge would be extended, I would have kept it offline a bit longer and tried to edit more precise details into it, but I thought "Saturday at midnight" meant I had to get it in on Friday or else, and... bleh. I have to admit, I'm one of those fan writers who doesn't put as much work into her stories as other people before posting. In this case I was rushed and flipped out, but usually I'm just lazy.
The Medina kid... he is a reflection of Joshua in a sense, because he's Ismaire's extended family and also a child she's attempting to protect, and for Carlyle - he's just in the way. He wasn't intended to have symbolic significance. If he can be worked around that way, maybe it's something I should look at, though.
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Date: 2010-02-07 03:17 pm (UTC)I wish they'd put more thought into the world.
Yeah, that's one reason I have no desire to write Jehanna 'fic. The other nations I can shoehorn into Western European tropes, but not that one. At least with Khadein and Chiasmir, I can draw on ancient Persia and the Islamic golden age, but it doesn't feel write for Jehanna because of the mercenary schtick. I admit I'd probably have finished my Innes-story by this point if I felt as comfortable in Magvel as I do in Archanea.
That happens because I've found over time I'm better at developing a setting if I'm trying to use it, instead of making lists and diagrams, or outlines, and so forth.
That's interesting. I kind of do the same thing, except I only ever write down 30-40% of what I come up with. Most of the revision and refining goes on in my head long before I attempt to write, and by the time I hit the paper/screen, I've already discarded a great deal. But I have all this other stuff filed away for later....
Even FE6 gave me more information - or at least, more relevant information.
Oh, I was under the impression that FE6 had bucketloads of world-building, with the Etrurian politics and all. So it's really hazy, too?
I thought "Saturday at midnight" meant I had to get it in on Friday or else
You and me both, ha ha ha.
I am mostly happy with the way "Troublesome Insects" turned out (considering that was literally a first draft!), but it's not like I wasn't playing with the idea for months before I sat down to write this iteration of it. I guess challenge-writing for a deadline is good for me. Maybe. I don't know.
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Date: 2010-02-08 12:24 am (UTC)This. Only it's Tellius for me. I've yet to find the same footing in any of the other worlds, and not for lack of trying. Love must have something to do with it. Ha ha. >_>
Jehanna Hall would seem to reference cultures even earlier than the Islamic age, but again, there's so little to go on that all one can do is grab the elements that are convenient and run with it. I had hopes and dreams of comparing it to the Hanging Gardens of Babylon, but that's a bit too elaborate.
I kind of do the same thing, except I only ever write down 30-40% of what I come up with
With fan fiction horning in on my creativity, I find I'll forget the details too quickly if I don't write them down in big blocks of text. That's just how it works for me; it's worth an entire post to explain why. While I do a lot of thinking that I never write down, I almost always want to type as much as I can about physical details. Maybe it has something to do with having a physical copy.
I was under the impression that FE6 had bucketloads of world-building
It does, but it's vague. Like, you know the Etrurian court is decadent in a certain kind of way, but it doesn't give you much of an example. (I don't consider a conniving nobleman and his cronie to say much about the court in general.) The path of the game happens to take you through the Western Isles, though, which reveals how Etruria handles its colonies, and in doing so also gives you a pretty good idea how they treat their allies - so even though Etruria itself remains kind of shadowy, you know what their policies are like.
The same can't be said of FE8, as far as I can see. So even FE6, which is kind of sparse on detail, gives me more information to work with than the other.
Also, Troublesome Insects was pretty good for a first draft. Nothing to worry about there.
Challenges are very good about getting you to write ideas that would otherwise just knock around in your head. It's the only reason I participate in them.
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Date: 2010-02-08 07:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-10 06:24 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-08 03:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-02-10 06:26 pm (UTC)FE8 infuriates me when I write it, unfortunately. I would love to see more fic for it (from other people XD), and yet, I imagine it's unlikely because it's hard to write for. It really does deserve more love, though. Renais is fairly well developed in relation to other countries.
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Date: 2010-02-08 07:51 pm (UTC)(Obviously that did not stop me from reading and enjoying this piece.)
[buckets of blood to quench the scorching sands]
I just love that line, and I'm not even quite sure why that is. It's just really beautiful in a sick sort of way, hahaha. "Buckets" of blood to "quench" the "scorching" sands. I do believe that the words I put in quotation marks are the words that make that piece seem to powerful and intimidating...in a really beautiful/sick sort of way.
[and the words I pledge my life and my sword to the king sounded right when he recited them in the throne room for his knighting, but implied an eternity of the acidic twisting in his gut when he caught sight of Ismaire]
I should stop before I quote half the damned story. Seriously, this is brilliant! [insert epic emoticon smiley face here.] The poor man. But my favorite part of that sentence is "and the words...sounded right when..." because it's definitely the saddest part. A reflection with a tinge of regret. Words spoken that seemed so very right at the time of speaking, but later ended up feeling wrong. Beautiful work with that.
[Every morning spent attending her Carlyle reminded himself he was a dog instead of a man, loyal and single-minded, grateful for scraps of affection.]
This line is spectacular. How true it is, and yet... I don't know. It'd be wonderful to have more people in the world who were like "dogs", don't you think? Loyal and eager to please their person? Happy for attention, even when less than the usual amount can be spared. Always there to kiss away tears? Being a dog is not entirely bad. Too bad he doesn't realize it in this piece!
[he'd yet to lose a fight that mattered]
I have the very distinct feeling that this means much more than it is saying.
["When you win," she said, her hand drifting to rest, splayed, against her throat, and her eyes moving to the candle flame, "will you claim your prize?"]
This is sexy/very sensual and beautiful. I love the image it presents. :]
The ending was beautiful, but like the rest of the story, bittersweet. A wonderful job. I really enjoyed reading this one. Don't ever sell yourself short-- you write masterpieces!
(Also, I almost never "rewrite" 'fic, either. Maybe it's laziness, or something else, but I've only ever done it once or twice, myself. Hah.)
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Date: 2010-02-10 06:31 pm (UTC)Being a dog is not entirely bad. Too bad he doesn't realize it in this piece!
This is why I used the image, actually: because I can imagine Carlyle at once desiring Ismaire and not wanting to let go of that, yet also wishing he had simpler needs so he wouldn't feel that way. I doubt he wants the capability to feel at all after a while.
That's so angsty, but we're talking about unrequited love, soooo.
I have the very distinct feeling that this means much more than it is saying.
Yes. XD
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Date: 2010-02-14 03:09 am (UTC)I am sad, though, to read that everyone dislikes FE8 so much. I think the simplicity of it is one of the reasons I love it so. The politics of Fe9&10 alternately bore or annoy me. In a way FE8 is more of a fairytale and I rather like that. As for the lack of detail, again it's just not something that bothers me. In fact it's a relief; when I write original stuff I have to spend a lot of time on world-building and establishing so much of the setting and the details so it' really a relief when I can relax on that a bit in fanfic.
Anyway, that's all a bit off-topic. What I really want to say is that this story is excellent!
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Date: 2010-02-14 06:08 pm (UTC)As for the rest - I find FE8 fic requires a lot more work on my part, because the way I write depends heavily on details (history, etc.) that the game doesn't provide for me. So first I have to pick the canon apart and see if there are any details in supports, or the script, that will give me clues, and then I have to come up with history, physical details, and things that will suit the environment, and then I get to write. It's strange I don't like this, when world-building is something I normally enjoy when writing originals, but in fan fiction it feels like a burden. Fic, for me, is a means to speculate, not to create, so having to do both affects the experience.
However, I'm glad you enjoyed the fic, and maybe Jehanna won't be so intimidating to write after this, since I've made the effort to build on it a little. Other areas, on the other hand...